ass back home

One Day we'll be happy like that <3

Been a few days since I last blogged, but trust me, there wasn't a second awake I wasn't thinking of you. Just afraid that I'd sprout nonsense when I do and you'd see it. You probably won't see this anyway, but just know that I'm still deeply head over heels on love with you <3

Every moment spent with you is just such joy, but it hurts to see you sad like that, you may look fine on the outside, but inside, I know you're slowly breaking into pieces.. He's not worth it babe.. No one's worth your sadness, not even me. I know it sounds silly because I'm the one saying it, and I know I don't deserve you, but I'll continue to work hard to be your model boyfriend, best friend, and pillar of support.

I know I'm a loser and I don't know how to cheer you up, but I promise no matter what I'd always be here for you, through your happiness, sadness, tears and laughter.

ISLYBBG <3

Hopes and feelings

I don't really know what to say or do at this juncture, you're blowing hot and cold, it's like making me feel horrible.. I'm sorry for being clingy, maybe I forgot we're no longer an item and you're no longer what I can call my own.. Yesterday felt horrible, I hate it when you're with him, but I still wish you all the best and I hope he never stops making you happy.. I've to learn one new thing, which is to stop being an irritant, that, I'll try okay? I'm going to lose some weight! spur me on aite? I also will stop smoking after I finish this pack. I try my best!! see you later for lunch hahaha <3


I'll keep trying to remain as only your best friend for now, till the day comes when I've become a new person:)

I'll be waiting forever

Good morning again sweetheart;) I've decided to stop going after you for a while, and see how things goes, like I said on the phone last night, when I'm sure I have changed and sure things won't end up in complications and drama, I'd chase you back again, I know the pain's not worth it, but when we get back together, you wont regret it <3 afterall I don't want to end up losing you again if we ever get back together;) i know your mind is pretty made up now, but you probably haven't seen the change or felt that sincerity..

Yesterday was a great day, you still owe me three heads = you owe me your life! you damn sore loser:( nevermind, I shall forgive you:)but I still want my three heads!!:@ The steamboat damn not worth it:( DAMN EX!! nevermind, I'll pay you back. Give me time okay?:x please don't do what we did after steamboat often okay? NOT GOOD!!

Sorry for not behaving well last night, I'm really sorry, please don't be angry:( I won't be a bitch and a dick anymore:(((

About Him, I hope you'd think carefully before really being serious about him, I just don't feel safe about him. I don't want you to be a trophy to him babe.. I'd give you my honest opinions about him and not be biased, but you got to try look from my perspective and stop thinking I'm telling you all those because I still love you blablabla!!

oh yea, check this out, I may be a cancer, but cancers are crabs and maybe I was a sick crab:( but when I'm recovered from the sick cancer disease, this would happen:D :

Virgo WOMAN – Cancer MAN
The most effective element contributing to a high Virgo and Cancer compatibility is the caring and affectionate nature of the duo. The love offered by the man would make his woman less shy. However, the woman should try not using harsh words towards the sensitive man, or else he would be deeply hurt by them. The sharp memory and an excellent creative power of the man will attract his love mate, whereas the perfectionism and loving nature of the woman would allure him. The only problem that could result in tiffs between the couple is the critical temperament and excessive sensitiveness.

In a nutshell, it can be observed that:

Despite different personas both mates would form a perfect pair.

The Virgin can teach the Crab to think rationally and the Crab can teach her not to take everything to heart.

Rating compatibility between the two, it can be said that it’s GREAT.

Thoughts and feelings

Good morning!! Woke up feeling crappy, drank martell alone at home last night, head slightly spinning, who cares? If I couldn't drink beside you I still wanted to drink with you;) felt kind of hurt last night, I really didn't mean to irritate you, I know we're no longer a couple, but can't I care even if I was your best friend and your buddy?..

I feel so silly, clinging on and holding on to something that I'm not so sure about myself - getting you back in my miserable life. I wish the same wish everyday, that those mushy texts and tweets were actually meant for me. I want so much to ask if you still love me or if I still had a chance, but I'm afraid you'd get angry.. I really treasure you so much now, is it too late?? Now even spending a few hours each day is like a gift from God.. I'm not making empty promises anymore right? I've started to show you that I've changed have I?.. I hope he doesn't hurt you, or you don't get serious in that relationship, when you yourself have doubts ..

I seriously am a silly boy am I? Like when we think of the same things and stuff, there's still telepathy and I think that just because othat I hold a chance of courting you again..(we even wore the same underwear remember? xP) I even see 11;11s so frequently when I least expect it and think that I'm still on your mind. Joke? sigh.. Maybe this is a test from God, but I really don't want to give up, I won't let you down;)

I fucking feel like changing your wallpaper..

Regrets I'd never forget

Today was quite a good day, except that you took damn long to wake up and our day together seemed so short, far too short, sigh:( I told you I'd sing? Hahahah:) my voice nice not?:$ I love your voice :$ surprised I was so gracious when we played pool? I myself also surprised;x now can play with you I already feel so fortunate:))) I realised what a sore ass prick I was last time, fancy losing my temper over a stupid game and spoiling the mood:/ now I'd gladly lose 1 million games:( any game any argument anything I also don't mind losing... I know Im no longer in any position to make any requests, hold you hug you, snuggle up to you like the past, and I regret that so much.. I really don't mind doing anything for you any longer. I used to think it was very difficult to give way to you, but now, feels like such a joy to.. Silly eh? Realising these all too late.. Now that I think back, how could I be unhappy when I'm with you??

Cheer up a bit!! I really really hope you appeal success into FBI:( I don't like to see you sian sian like that:( hahah sleep sleep sleep, you've never changed;) finally we can go sing k:D fuck I actually like to sing but i shy because my voice sucks:( later I'm going to on the song loud loud so you can't hear me sing ^^ there's still about 25 min before I can wake you up:@ I feel so loser everyone entering poly now:( I'll work hard and do fucking well!! I hope I can:x know what? your smile is gorgeous <3

Hello cutiepie

Why are humans like that? Always taking things for granted and regret when they lose that someone or something. Sorry, I still miss you loads.. I used to expect so much, now, just sitting by your side listen to you complain, whine, chat with me, wow I'm already so happy.. Was quite shocked you actually came to look for me, I lied to myself that it's because you missed me. Oops gahah:x stupid Indian, that's why I hate Indians!!:X every minute extra spent with you now is like, wow, blissful:))))) I hope one day I get my goodbye kisses and hearts again:( lying in my new bed now, so much bigger than yours!! Lie down and roll twice hahah:P I'll wait for your call;)

Xoxo,

Heartfelt words

I really really miss you so much.. I die a little more each time you talk to me that way.. I really miss you so much.. I cant let you go and I can't stop caring.. Im just afraid that he'd hurt you. I admit I'm selfish, because I want you to myself.. But if that's not possible, at least give me a fraction of your attention? Everyday I regret a little more, realise that I can't live without you and realise I really can't move on because I've told myself never to give you up.. I wish you were by my side.. I wish you'd let me pour my heart out.. I really don't know what to do, and I don't know how to constantly talk to you and not drift while not irritating you.. Why are you so easily irritated?.. Jealousy. I feel so jealous of him.. If I were him, I'd hold you so tight, treat you so sincerely and never hurt you, never bring you a tear..

First day after so long

I CAN'T SEEM TO UPLOAD A PICTURE!!!!DDDD:

Alright, I still want to say this, not directly to you so you can't say i break my promise!! Don't read if you don't want lo :P

It's been sometime since i genuinely smiled, been so moody so sad so depressed day in day out for a week or more.. Thanks for bringing it back(: You have no idea how much I'm missing and thinking of you.. I was like fuckfuckfuckfuck Louis don't want me go fuckfuckfuckfuck I can't see her today.. THANK GOD FOR YENYEN!! yea I was a dumbass go play texas..:x But i don't really feel sad about the money, in fact, I'm quite glad we made it this close together today<3

Please don't misunderstand? I didn't intentionally break that promise, I just couldn't hold back.. I'll keep learning and one day you won't say you don't want to be with me, anymore(: I hope

I felt so much like a jerk when you teared, but I'll remember this hug and kiss you gave me, because it means a lot to me and I believe it'll happen again <3

I'll work to be the guy you love and want to love, and make you happy all over again <3 we've been through so much together, we deserve to be happy(: I'd make the ride worthwhile. Don't doubt me just yet, let me prove it to you <3 I hope one day you'd come to me yourself and kiss me again, since I can't kiss you:( You deserve more than the old Joshua bii, but now he's weaving up his cacoon and you'd get to see that butterfly soon <3

I really didn't mean to wake you up, i thought you were still awake:x

I missed you way way more than you missed me, and I still love you loads <3 I'm really not going to give up, you'll see, I love you bii, forever and ever <3

disclaimer: I really didn't break my promise, is you read one uh! I'm not trying to irritate or anger you:(

Broken Heart

I miss you so much babygirl, I just keep thinking of you. I've told my mum everything that has happened. How I let you down, don't worry, she doesn't blame you. I was so down and I cried so bad in front of her.. She even bought me beer when I asked her to. My mum cool??;)

I won't and can't bring myself to hate you, because I still love you so so much. Just when I decided to be a perfect boyfriend.. I don't blame you either babe, just remember that I'll never forget you, and if I ever make it big, I'd tell the world that this girl means so much and I've never forgotten her.

Just to let you know, I've never regretted knowing you, because you

taught me what love was and taught me how to love <3 I just miss you

so so much. I hope you meant what you said in those messages, that we

might start anew as friends and even be together again.

I love you Lim Xinle <3