Good morning!! Woke up feeling crappy, drank martell alone at home last night, head slightly spinning, who cares? If I couldn't drink beside you I still wanted to drink with you;) felt kind of hurt last night, I really didn't mean to irritate you, I know we're no longer a couple, but can't I care even if I was your best friend and your buddy?..
I feel so silly, clinging on and holding on to something that I'm not so sure about myself - getting you back in my miserable life. I wish the same wish everyday, that those mushy texts and tweets were actually meant for me. I want so much to ask if you still love me or if I still had a chance, but I'm afraid you'd get angry.. I really treasure you so much now, is it too late?? Now even spending a few hours each day is like a gift from God.. I'm not making empty promises anymore right? I've started to show you that I've changed have I?.. I hope he doesn't hurt you, or you don't get serious in that relationship, when you yourself have doubts ..
I seriously am a silly boy am I? Like when we think of the same things and stuff, there's still telepathy and I think that just because othat I hold a chance of courting you again..(we even wore the same underwear remember? xP) I even see 11;11s so frequently when I least expect it and think that I'm still on your mind. Joke? sigh.. Maybe this is a test from God, but I really don't want to give up, I won't let you down;)
I fucking feel like changing your wallpaper..
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