this morning mervin and yen came to look for me, we sat somewhere after yenyen ate and talked for a long time. she was the one who lent me money by the way. they kept talking about many funny things and i laughed, just didn't really want to make them worry. but i still ended up talking about you. I just realised yenyen's change topic skills quite pro, because she kept changing the topic whenever I'm back to talking about you. after that samuel came to meet us. after a while they left to a friend's birthday, leaving me and mervin. we went to marine parade to meet Jon and the rest, they after that you know what happened already.today's such a bad day, my mind is thinking of nothing but you. I miss you badly baby, but i'm glad i'd see you tomorrow<3 I came to realise that you're the only one that makes me really want to hold on to, like never ever let go. I'll always love you the same no matter what. 50 times more. <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 again i figured typing instead of copying and pasting would be sincere. I'm so sorry for what I did. I'll work hard to put that smile permanently on your face. I want to be the guy going down on his knees in front of you with a wedding ring and proposing to you in future:$ I love you, I really do. no i DO NOT need a psychiathrist, i just need you by my side not giving up on me and encouraging me. I'll change, for you. I love you baby<3
Remember how sweet we used to be? I am always dead broke recently, and you practically paid for everything. i don't really know how to blog or create a blogpage I'm sorry. I owe you so much baby, and since you dont want to talk to me, I guess this is the only way i can still talk to you. I miss you so much already. I know it's my fault, and I really don't want you to leave. You mean so much to me baby. I know I hurt you sometimes too, I'm sensitive, but not to your feelings. I get irritated easily, and annoy you all the time. 
I'm guessing you really hate me now. I miss you so much you know? I love you to bits. I'm always complaining about your faults, but never once really sit down to think how i hurt you sometimes. now, I'd be contented to see your smile again, hold your hand, hug you, kiss you 100,000 times a day, but I'm so afraid you'd leave. If you really do, I really don't know what to do. I just hope you'd take good care of yourself, keep smiling because your smile melts me, drink more plain water, not cold. you dont drink water frequently and like to eat rubbish, no wonder you have such a weak stomach. remember to stick your leg medicine, no jogging these two weeks. Remember, I'll always be waiting, I'm just a call away. lastly, I use pink font because you love pink. I love you baby. Never anyone more. Never did, never have, never will. If you would read this entire thing, and I don't know how to make a tagboard, just reply me to my phone? I love you baby, more each day, each hour, each minute, each second.( I hope you don't consider this not giving you time and space:( ) Love You<3
this morning mervin and yen came to look for me, we sat somewhere after yenyen ate and talked for a long time. she was the one who lent me money by the way. they kept talking about many funny things and i laughed, just didn't really want to make them worry. but i still ended up talking about you. I just realised yenyen's change topic skills quite pro, because she kept changing the topic whenever I'm back to talking about you. after that samuel came to meet us. after a while they left to a friend's birthday, leaving me and mervin. we went to marine parade to meet Jon and the rest, they after that you know what happened already.
